Now that I think of it, I can’t believe I’m 29 years old. It seems like a big number, but I don’t feel like an older guy. I feel young as ever, still vibrant and excited as ever about the possibilities in my life. I don’t have any major plans today, but I have been in Michigan attending to some family matters and visiting with friends.
I’m not sure if there’s anything that should be ‘different’ at this point in my life. I think I’ve lived an amazing life thus far, which has been filled with great memories, achievements and experiences. Despite the rough patches “here and there”, I’ve always been able to recover and move ahead.
Of course, there are always things we wish to approach differently. In another decade, I’ll be 39 years old. That isn’t far away. I don’t know what my life will be like then, but so far, I’ve been doing OKAY. I do know that I want to live a richer and happier life. Regardless, I’ve come a long way. I’ve navigated several storms and I’m still standing.
One of the great lessons I’ve learned in life is to not be broken by any woman. I’ve had my fair share of being taking for granted by women and those moments were some of the most hurtful experiences ever. I have a pretty cold heart when it comes to women these days, but underneath it all, there’s still a faint desire to meet a meaningful person who’s trustworthy, kind, selfless, etc.
At this point in my life, I’ve already settled on a solo lifestyle. I don’t think much anymore about someone else being part of it, because my experiences to date with women have been so shitty that it’s pointless to even wonder what’s out there. I refuse to be the guy who isn’t living a fulfilled life because society says you need a woman to enjoy it. I think I spent one too many years dreaming and hoping for the right woman to come along and these days, I’m just living life for myself.
Looking ahead, I believe there are great things on the horizon. It will take some time to figure some things out, while other things will simply happen on their own. What I want to focus on right now is greater happiness in my life going forward. There’s been a lot of sadness in my life due to many things and I want to change that.
Anyway, there’s a sample of my thoughts. I hope all is well with you.