There. I finally admitted it. I do get lonely. I do miss my family. Earlier this year, my Grandmother asked, “Why did you leave (Michigan)?” I left because I needed my own identity. I needed to learn more about myself, the world and the people in it. I needed to break free of the molds that I always fought against within my family and society.
I needed a break away from everything comforting. I wanted to teach myself some new lessons. I was ready to do so at 19, but at the urging of my family, I stayed closer to home for another two years. Fortunately, I already had my taste of travel and different places. I’ve always known there was more out here for me to discover.
Life has taken me in so many directions. There are experiences I wish I never had and those I wish never ended.
There are moments when I question what I’m doing. I wonder if the cure for my part-time loneliness is an extended visit with family or a shrug of the shoulders. When I’m alone and in my own world, sometimes I wish there was someone who truly understood me. Someone I could share my most deepest thoughts with. Someone who I could pass the time with in laughter and thought-provoking conversation.
You know, our ‘alone time’ is a wonderful thing. I enjoy kicking back and disappearing from the world for a time. I disconnect from the world and hibernate. It’s a fulfilling break from everyday life. There’s a lot of time to reflect on one’s life.
What I know at this point in my life is that I’m on a journey. Being lonely and missing your family is part of the process. They’re both only temporary feelings. I can’t turn away from my mission, which is to learn, grow and prosper. I am never satisfied with myself. I have to continue striving, succeeding, dreaming and experiencing. My journey isn’t fulfilled until I’m satisified with my progress. Hopefully that will be as a very old man who’s counting down his final days to move on to another life.
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My wife traveled the world with Up with People for a year before we were married (after we fell in love). What an empty feeling in our heart. Shortly after she returned, I moved to SoCal 9 months before she could join me. During this time apart, we grew stronger as individuals making our marriage rock solid (7 yrs on Monday). We are back in CO where we are both natives and where most of our family members live – we planned to be back because we were not running from anything rather taking advantage of opportunity and learning a ton. We still learn a ton at home, but travel and out of comfort zone helped us be the thick skinned entrepreneurs we are – you will too as long as you are not running from something.
Sounds like you’re feeling down – I say don’t! I actually got to your blog after reading some old comments on my blog (one that you left in December of last year regarding me moving from Chicago back to michigan).
Anyways, having just turned 26 and not being married / in a serious relationship, I can totally sympathize with what you’re experiencing. Until my life changes to fit those missing things, I think, I’m just going to focus on my career first, my pet, my family and doing things I want to do. If that means watching The Dark Knight by myself at IMAX, so be it. If it’s just looking at Digg for a few minutes every day, that’s fine too. If I want to take off ona road trip across the state on a random weekend, who’s to stop me?
I’m not saying the single life is perfect compared to being in a relationship/married but there’s somethingt o be said about having the ability to do your own thing without having to work someone else into your plans or accomodate their’s.
Just keep your chin up and focus on what’s doable right here, right now. Peace dude!